im not perfect.

YMonday, May 17, 2010' 10:49 PM

YAY. there's gonna be a sec3 camp in indonesia, karimun which would be held on thursday to friday for my class. its a two days one night trip and we're taking the ferry there. i thought aeroplane sia. D: and we're going with class 3F. we'll be staying in a hotel. NOT. its actually a motel. it doesnt have towels, toothbrush. -.- and dass said the place is well known to have prostitudes there. crappy place.
im sure im gonna have fun, cos i love camps. cos i can stay far far away from home and get to spent the days with my awesome friends. :) but i dont understand why some people dont like the idea of having camps. :O camp is so fun lor! the adventures and dangers. i love it. :Dv anyways, joyce aint going bacause of HER. -.- sad. ): ohoh, there's gonna be shopping! but is only 45 mintues. tsk. but at least better than nothing. im thinking of bringing destiny along. :)
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today is like damn lame luh. had to practice walking in and out of the hall for some kinda investiture thing. waste of time~ its for the prefects, sports leaders, class committee blabla. whats there to practice uh? its just walking into the stage and sitting down at the chairs. like that also need practice ? o.o its not like a fashion show. :x then ms koh made me clip my fringe up which made me look like an idiot. -.- somemore need go up to the stage, shake hands with mr loh and TAKE PICTURE. OH NO. Dx urgh.
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i watched iron man 2 yesterday with him and i totally agree that iron man 1 is so much better to watch. at vivomax, the theater is HUGE and its freezing in there. one thing i dont like about movies is that i always freeze. i doubt blankets can keep me warm enough. honestly, body heat is the best solution. :x
and we made destiny before the movie. ITS PINK! its very cute luh. >.< i hugged it during the movie and it kinda kept me warm. btw, destiny is no ordinary bear hor! its from him which makes is so special. everytime i look at it, i'll be reminded of him. which is why i wanna bring it with me during the indonesia camp trip. i hope nobody steals it. putting it at home is unsafe anyway. my sis might do something to it. :x hehe. his hands are so cold like ice. thought it would be warm. but nevermind luh, i shall keep it warm. :)
me- i am born to be quiet in nature and indecisive. i tend to keep a lot of things to myself. so yeah, thats what you have to know.

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right now, im depressed. there are many things going through my mind now. and im sure you're thinking about it too. OH GOD. but the decision is yours.
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the hurtful past
yes, true. you dont know much about me. same here. i just need you to trust me that im taking this seriously. THIS IS NOT A GAME. i know the feeling of being toyed with. and i will not toy with you. i really cant do that.
i was hurt once, my heart shattered. i treated him seriously, i was forced to give my first kiss to him, and in the end, it was just a game to him. he dumped me. i was a toy whom he got bored of. and that wasnt the end of it. after we broke up, he sent me hurtful msged, critizing me and was accused by him of doing something i didnt do. i had to be councelled by mrs cheam. i'll never forget the day he made me apologise in his face when i didnt do anything wrong. i tried not to cry. sigh. that was two years ago. i was a naive little girl. heh. im not now. omg, im so regretful. do i still hate him? NO. not anymore. i cant hate people for a long time.
end of trgic story.